Just little of this and that

Where did the month of October go? This month just seem to fly by wow it will soon be time to start Christmas shopping which I have not thought of yet! As I sit here typing this I'm starting with cough not fun and runny nose little bit I do hate the change in season it causes people to get sick and share their germs with the rest of us. Yesterday was trickier or treat night in both Jim Thorpe and Leighton, the nursing home that I work had had sing placed on the door that due the spread of H1N1 that we are not going to be letting trickier or treaters into the nursing home this year, so some people did not read the sing on the door and got pissed when we told them we are not giving candy out this year. I don't fully remember how the sing read but it's to protect the children and our residents along with us staff. I hope that the sing is still up when I got into work tonight because I will take photo and show you what I'm talking about. I felt bad for the residents beacuse some of them look foward to seeing the kids come in dressed up so what we did was for the ones that wanted to see them we took them to and sat the in front of the windows so that they could see them.

Re doing my bed room in East theme

I have stated that I wanted to redecorate my bedroom in east theme, which is true I do want to I just have to find all the right things for it now, I know that I can find good things on ebay and some in the stores as well. I hope that this dose not offend anyone but I want to put some Hindu god statues in my room to go along with Buddha! I love Sharell's sofa com bed I would like to put something at the end of my bed to store thing, I need to de clutter my clutter! HAHAHAH the photo the Sharell posted of how nice her living room looked for Diwali gave me more push to do my room in east theme that is good thing I'm even going to get rid of the horrible paneling in it and paint it nice color put some light, no I have not lost my mind. If anyone had any good Ideas what I can use for my east theme do let me know I'm open to ideas!

Questions people don't want to hear

Dose size of person really matter? Dose how big or small a person matter? Dose it matter if we are fat or skinny? Dose it matter if we are fat or skinny? Do we get treated differently because of this? Most people will avoid these question so not as to offend anyone or just don't want to face the truth about the answers some don't want to answer them for whatever reason but they know what their answer is though! To me the answer to all these question is YES how do I know the answer to these question is because I'm this person. some people will say that I'm in between but I will tell you that I'm this person THE FAT OVER WEIGHT PERSON that all or most of you like to stare at look at talk about make fun of! I know what some of you are say OMG I can't believe she just said that or is sharing this with people quick we need to shut the fatty up! WELL GUESS WHAT YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO THAT NOT I'M SHARING MY LAP-BAND LIFE WITH THE WORLD AND EVERYONE WHAT LIFE HAS BEEN LIKE FOR ME BEFORE AND AFTER! I'm no longer going to hide this topic I'm openly talking about it to anyone because I have grown as person and learned that I talk about I might be able to help just maybe one person out there in the world, that is my hope maybe to help someone show others that you don't have to be ashamed, scared or whatever is that you may be feeling it's okay you are not alone. This was me me last year in December before I have my weight loss operation done on July 6.2009 I my weight then was 256 LBS yes I just shared how heavy I was, not that is not my heaviest, before you get to the next question was I happy I'm happy out going person but I was not fully happy I knew that I was making the right choice to have WLS done I knew then and I know now it's not quick fix but it's the right tool for me. No I'm not skinny right I am getting healthier though day by day, this is not easy road but I'm not sorry that I chose this road because getting WLS done has been opening so many doors for me that I never thought were possible for me. Now to answer those questions:

Dose size of person really matter?

A: In today's society yes it dose we base everything on weight and size we as Americans want everything bigger and better even out food which is not good, I think we need to take hit from our foreigner friends and start to cut our protons down eat more healthy exercise more and know that bigger is not always better. When we all look as people the first thing we all notice, is their size how big or small they are instead of noticing them as person or notice them just to say hello, me I no longer look as people by size but notice them as person someone can be skinny and be bad person or then can be huge person and be bad person it dose not matter. I think we need to stop looking at size and get to know one another after all we only get to life this life once who knows what the next will hold for us.

Dose how big or small a person matter?

A: To me it dose not matter if you are tall or short big or skinny but to the rest of society it dose matter, and it should not what should matter is how healthy we are!

Dose it matter if we are fat or skinny?

A: Simple answer is yes it dose just look at all the Ad's on Tv in magazine's then parents want to know why their children have eating problem. Also this can go for parents who just let their kids sit in front of tv hello let me go outside and play for while it will do them go outside play for while it will not hurt anyone in fact plan family days out

Do we get treated differently because of this?

A: I would like to say no this dose not happen but it dose happen we get treated differently most of the time it depends on where you are at.

I know that these answers are not shock to a lot of you and to some of you the truth hurts if this is the case sorry but it's so very true. I have even had people treat me differently because they know that I had WLS done and I have told them I'm the same person just changed little that is all their is just less of me and happier person that is all. I have learned so fair that it's just nice to get out of the house take walk or even take trip somewhere walk around see new thing etc. I want to walk one of the state park trails today but the weather was not on my side I was hoping to get some great photos but that will have to wait for another day. I have never let any of those questions ever stop me from doing anything that I ever wanted to do in life I'm just not the type of person.

My love chai Tea

This photo was take in NYC at Zebars where I decided to have cup of iced chai "that is tea for those that don't know what chai is" This is one of my favorite tea I love to drink it hot or cold for some reason, don't get me wrong this tea is not something that everyone will like once they try it, for some it's acquired taste the first time that I tryed it I feel in love with it. I do know that this drink is the drink of India! If I'm wrong on this account someone correct me and I will fix this blog! I love the smell when it's brewing in cup or even when someone is make it on the stove. In case you have not guessed it I'm huge tea drinker I like it hot or cold, some people can't stand it but it's all about choice for everyone but I do urge people to try chai at least once or twice in their life time. This drink seems at times to get me through nutty work day and the crazy place that I work at ,even at home when things get stressful just the smell from the tea calms me down. I did learn the hard way don't drink it late at I night like around 11pm I learned this the hard way I was up all night long and had to drink more the next day to stay awake.

foliage part two

I took this photo right before the rain came I wanted to get some great shots of the foliage before the rain came and took all of the pretty leaves away, I do wish the sun would have been out it would have made it so much better but I dealt with what God gave me this day. I tryed to get photo here of the whole town in one shot but could not do so. If you are wondering where I'm at taking these photos I'm on top of mountain at place called Flag staff you can eat their and also look down at the whole town it's great spot go their sometimes to be alone or just to think. I was asked what they name of the mountain is I have always known them as the Pocono Mountains the past 7yrs that I have lived here but if their is another name of the mountains that run through Jim Thorpe someone can let me know. I do have tons more photos that I have to upload from my digital camers this week. I'm planing on my day off it's it not freezing cold or raining outside to walk on of the trails that we have in town and get some more great photos.

fall foliage

Yesterday I took some nice pictures of the foliage here before they rain came and took all the nice looking leaves away. I must confess that the past few weeks I have not felt like me little depressed hate my job want new one, want to move out of this town, but something about the leaves changing and Diwali happening renewed something inside me woke me up changed the way that I was feeling and seeing thing. I don't know why but it just changed me even though I live in tourist town I no longer I the moment no longer hate living here in fact I'm looking all around to see what I can find that is different never seem before. I had some Arron's that I needed to take care of so while I was waiting for traffic to move in the next town I too this photo of the leaves from afar I found it interesting so I thought that I would share with all of you. I was glad to get these photos before the rain hit in fact it started to get cooler out while I was on top of the mountain getting some photos as well. Also our town have fall foliage every year in October for 3 weekends and people actually sell leaves that fall from the trees and people are crazy nought to buy them too! How nuts is that I mean come on people could just walk around and pick leaves off the ground and save some money but that is just me. This photo here is photo of my whole town from on top of mountain I tyred to get all of it in 1 shot but I did not but still came out off will post more on flicker

My second fill

I know that I'm two weeks late in posting this but things have been nuts for me lately and it's slipped my mind I'm not perfect. On October 8, 2009 I got my second fill in my band prior to this I had 5cc's in my band up until this apt, I also lost 10 LBS as well which the doctor was proud of me to lose that much in months times and so was I. He decided to add 5 1/2cc to my band which makes for total of 10 1/2 cc in my band now I can really feel it too let me tell you! I have also noticed that somethings I was eating before I can't eat now which I WAS TOLD could happen so I'm not mad, I just take these things as they come along try not to get up or pissed off about it because I knew all of this before have the operation. To was the first time that I ever got stuck episode it was horrible but I knew that if I kept drinking it would either go down or come back up, well it came back up, I must say that after it happened I felt a lot better and I did not eat the rest of my lunch either, I only took 2 bites of it too, I told my Nana to finish it if she wants because I cannot eat it. Prior to lunch I did not have nothing to eat nor did I eat anything after that what mistake I was in Barnes & Noble and my sugar got low thank goodness for Starbucks because I got cookie which I normally would not eat but needed something sweet so I got one took few bits and also got chi to drink as well my sugar did come but this tough me lesson even after episode like that I should eat something else as well so that dose not happen again. I must say that I'm glad for my second fill trust me you will know when you are do for fill

How my town is similar to India

I was Reading Sharell's blog http://www.whiteindianhousewife.com/ check it out it's great I love her blogs!!! Well as I was saying I love her blogs because I can relate to some of them in so many ways because of growing up moving all the time due to have father that was in the US Army so I have friends from all different back grounds cultures customs and countries which I totally love.
No I have never been nor lived in India yet!!! Just like Sharell I have always had calling to this country I don't know why but I have my mom would say that maybe in past life I was either Indian woman or have lived there. Maybe she is right in many ways one never fully knows what their past life was all about unless you are willing to explore it. No I'm not married to Indian man yet I'm still looking for MR.RIGHT well as close to that as one can get...........

I have found one of the many things that we have in common is that where I live the are not quick to move to do things or even get things done that even goes for where I work as well some days!!!!!! I do live in small town USA well to be more exact I live in tourist town which get tourist 365 day year no matter what!!!! This is not bad thing to me as I get to meet some interesting people along the way only because I get out of the house and play tourist myself just cause I can and want to I DON'T even have to use gas in my van to do this I just put my shoes on and walk to the other side of the town! hahahaha I know I need to get back on track so here goes well for one thing if we [I live with my dad and Nana yes I live at home yet which I do so cause i want to rent is cheaper and will till I get married] need handy man to come do something at the house for us which we one we use all the time he tells us what day he's coming well sometimes it's the next day or even week later sometimes he's even late and when he's don't he don't even clean up his mess!! Also he I don't want to use this word so lets engineers something or ghetto fixes something so that it works, I'm not sure what the right word would be for this so if I upset someone I'm sorry. I remember Sharell waiting for handy man or people to work or install something in her and the husband flat, we share that in common.
Also out plumier is not so fast to come some times it takes him hours,days, weeks to show up at out house, says that he's busy well maybe if he would write his apt down or send one of his helpers he might get things done I can remember one night we went without water UGH most of the time he tell us what time he's coming and dose not ever show up at that time I hate waiting all day and he never shows up nor answer his Mobile when we call.

Another thing here is sometimes nothing is ever organized or done timely manner sometimes one person dose not know what the other person is doing, that irks me.. Sharell talks about her neighbors Begin nosey rude even well I live in small tourist town where people gossip, are noise, rude, nuts etc! Here is the run down of the street that I live on: If you stand on our front porch you can see one the funeral homes next to it is nice house another house with apt building attached to it this BTW is to my left I will post photos on this blog soon of it like tomorrow, we live in half double home so next to us is the other half to my right is out neighbors one who an old noise couple who we call the neighbor hood watch cause they don't miss nothing next to them are drug dealers or whatever they are lets just say I can go on which is another blog. right across the street is BOB'S convent store/deli/restaurant which is own by great Indian family who my family love and respects I learn lots from them as well. We have people who will just drop by and are like hello call first or will call and ask how come they have not seen us out of the house in while or why they have not seen one of us or why are vehicle was not moved in day or two...
Now most people would not put up with this as long as I have which is 7yrs the only reason that I don't move back to Texas is because my Nana is going 85 she lost my mom 5years ago my dad and I feel she should not have to live alone at her age so we live with her help her out, don't get me wrong my Nana is not the typical old lady she drives, cooks,cleans, dose wash, goes on trip, even have part time job yet, she even keeps up with me you would not think she is going to be 85 next year! GOD bless her I hope she lives in good health and to be over 100 years old, I do help her out I do, do cooking cleaning washing yard work whatever she wants done but I also let her do what she wants to because if I stop her it's not good it will slow her down or something

Their are somedays that I think I have landed in some starange place and want to leave other times I just love it here, I must say that I'm coping with this place pretty good at times even where Iwork other times I want to quit leave move ect.....
Well that is enough for not I'm getting sleepy and rambeling on and on whcih is not good so I will write part two to this later on.

Kameez/kurta

Halloween is coming soon then I have realized it's one of my favorite times of the year. Here is what I have been getting from people : "So what I are you going to dress up as for halloween this year?'' My answer to everyone that has been asking me this is : " I'm going to be indie get looked at funny so I Say indian still get looked at strange so I say desi STILL get looked at strange till I say I'm going to be white indie or desi.'' So there answer back to me is this: " Why would you want to dress as that, when you can dress as anyone or anything that you could think of. My reply back to them is this: Well ths is what I want to dress as is white indian it's not making fun of myslef, anyone, anything,place, countrty ect. So why not if I can be anything for halloween why not white indian esp if I have always love they clothing that they wear and have always had calling to this country.

Now my only problem is that I'm looking for Kameez/kurta I have been looking online for one that is casual that I can even wear after halloween is over but some of them cost lot of money I know thatI can get some that don't cost over 50.00 if anyone know any great websites where Ican get some let me know please!!!!!!!!!!!! Where I live in small town PA their are not shops that sell indian clothing nearest city is Allentown I don't know that their are store that sell indian clothing and I really don't want to drive to philly

redoing my house and bedroom

Well all this talk of Diwali got me thinking about everything which is good thing. I have decided that life is to short don't stay mad at anyone it's not worth it, also that it's time for me to still keep looking for job no matter what because I need to get out of what I'm doing. Also that at least 1-2 days week I should spend some time with my family, along with get out more to travel see the world!!! I'm even going to redecorate my house in east theme esp my bed room something about east theme is just so relaxing to me I don't know why but it is so I will be looking for items to redo my house in east theme. If anyone knows where I can look to buy some of these please feel free to tell me. I will be adding soft looking light or more light to my bed room and I think dining room as well diwali the festival of light is one of my fav ones IDK but it just is I think because of all the light and how warm it is.

My trip to NYC on Saturday

This past Saturday I went to NYC on gourmet bus trip, let me tell you it was real disappointment to me along with the rest of the people the went with me up their. This photo was taken not fair from Zbars bagel place, we got to tour all 5 boughers in the city viva our tour bus we did stop off at different places to tour and check out the food. Let me tell you for someone that just had WLS done three months ago it was real challenge for me but I did great in fact I hardly ate thing!!! One of the places that I happen to like was Grand Central Station it's great people watching place along with shopping esp if you are waiting to get train or even is you are waiting to pick someone up, or even if you just want to go to the market their. I was very sad that we did not get to spend that much time their we did not even get much time to sit and have good meal I did not even get to sit down to have supper in fact I had to grab something to eat on the bus on the way home. Very up setting next time I go to NYC it will be with my own Vachel I will pay to park and take public transportation go on my own for the day or something. I did enjoy the walking that I got in it was not to be around people I forgot how nice it is to be in the city for some reason I don't seem to be cut our for small town life at times I have so much trouble with it.

Anyways back to my trip, I did get to go to China town and little Italy which I enjoyed even if I did not get to spend that much time their after that we ended up going to Union Square which I did like it was nice to walk the park see their farmers market it was nice to people watch their as well, one disappoint was this chocolate place we went to I thought it would have been something great it was huge let down it was another place to eat!!! By the third place we went to that had to do with food I was like come on I WANT to go see something else besides food, maybe about year ago this trip would have been the greatest thing since sliced bread but this time it did not appeal to me at all. How ever it was nice to get away for the day I did end up making my own fun I found ways around the whole food thing I just started to walk around to see things I did not buy nothing on Saturdy. All in all I did have good day. I do know that I will never pay 60.00 to go on trip like this again!!!

want to travel

I know that n my last post I said that I was not happy with my job that is so very to. I also have this longing to do something fun with me life something better I wish that I had job where I could travel more get out to see things. I am going to NY this weekend with my Nana and friends of ours on tour normaly this would not appeal to me to go on tour of city b- but I need to get out of town for the day do something other then go shopping whcih by the way is not my fav thing to do my nana dose she thinks this is something to do on weekend. Not me I like to hike walk trails travel to other towns place see things.



As I sit here I wonder what I can do on my weekends off where can I go on them if you have ideas please share them with me. Even idea of jobs where I can travel LOL!!!!



This is one thing I miss about my dad begin in the army we got to move and travel different place even where we lived we would to the next cities or towns to see things. I guess that I'm just tired of going shopping or sitting at home I need to get out see the world or something like that

FanFic or rather story I have come up with it's not real

October 7



It's hot and sticky here today in Mumbai which it fine by me at times but at other times I do wish that it was little cooler out, but this is where I chose to live for the next 6 months of my life! Remind me why I chose to come over here again self? Oh that is right because I wanted to work abroad for few months because I felt calling to this country, not that I'm complaining self.



All I got in the mail today was few letters from people that I work with at county hospital in the states wanting to know how my first few weeks were going, HA you have to love the US mail system that was over month ago! I got tons of emails from dad and bffs everyday for the past month wanting to know everything, well I told them what they need to know the rest I'm not telling.

It's not easy living here but I think tht for only beging here month that I'm getting use to things around here, I lerned that you have to clean like almost everyday, neightbors just come knock on your and come right in look around you flat even the kitchen the frige too they see what you have even the cabberts as well it dose not bother me they can snoop all the want as long as I'm happy that is that matters to me all though I do wish that they would not knock while I'm trying to sleep sometimes!!! GRRRR I do hate that I will have to work on that one.

I am going out tonight to night club with some of the girls that work with it should be fun considering I have never been to one here at all I will have to write about it when I get back from it. It's call Old Bombay club they say it's the it club to go to we shall see I wonder if it's different from the clubs in the states.


well I better go get ready then.

Got some new fall/winter clothes that are smaller to fit me

Yesterday I went shopping not because I was board or cause it what woman do I went because I no long have fall/winter clothing to fit me, all of my fall/winter clothes are to big on me. It felt so strange but yet at the sametime so good to be able to go into stores and not have to go to the puls size section looking and hoping that they will have something to fit me. family friend and her grand child went with us yesterday the oldest one like to shop in Areo so I went along in with them, I really had no intentions of looking for something for myslef because I did not think that there would be something in that store to fit me boy oh boy was I wrong about that! I was able to find 3/4 sleeve shirt that I like no jeans yet to fit me but they will in time. I feel like at first that they would tell me to get out we don't have nothing in here big enough to fit you, but I know that is not true they did have items in their that fit and will fit me in time to come. Another place that I found that had items that I like it Old Navy I was able to get two shirts and pair jeans in their to fit me it felt strange begin able to go in their and find jeans that fit me esp in short leganth since I'm short, it dose feel good knowing that I'm becoming healthier person then I was in fact I'm healthier person then I was this time last year that is good feeling to know this!!!!! I'm only going to become healthier as time goes on and smaller to! Don't get me wrong I'm not going nuts and buy tons of new clothes right now just enought to hold me over since I will just keep losing weight! I do hope that some of these blogs that I write about my WLS journey dose help or at least inspire people out their that are thinking about it or wanting to know what things are like.

fall and WLS

I'm sitting here reading some blogs and looking at Face book, My Space people are talking about fall, fall projects what they do when fall comes along etc. This got me thinking that maybe I should start some fall projects, go more places see more things, I think that it would be good for me to get out experience even more new things that I have not done before, because I let my weight stop me from doing things. I would like to go to pumpkin patch or apple orchard something like that just to see it maybe pick some apple and pumpkins to bring home, I guess I will have to look online for the nearest ones to me which is fine by me it might make for great day trip somewheres something to see even some great pictures to take since I love to take pictures of everything it seems like! I wonder what else I could do or try I'm open to ideas as well. As much as I hate the cold weather that is coming upon us here I have to come realize that it's much needed change since my WLS I have noticed that I'm changing as person I'm not the same person that I use to be I take more chances now I want to see the world I want to travel I even to realize that I don't even like where I work anymore! So since fall is about change I'm going to change with it as well I feel it's much needed to do this to make me even more healthier of person.
Having gone through WLS it's not easy on anyone let me tell you even your family they have to deal with the changes that are happening to you as well as yourself I know for me it's not that easy at times for my family or even for me but I know that things have to change in order for me to be the best person that I can be and healthier one at that!


Another thing about fall coming is that I have realized that I my fall/winter clothing no longer fits me any more! It's not what most of you are thinking that just read this they are not to tight or small on the in fact it's quite the opposite they are all to big on me now since I'm not as heavy as I use to be! I'm tryging to figure out weather I want to keep using the shirts that are huge one me till next year or if I want to just ahead and start to buy fall/winter clothing that fits me now? I'm not sure what I should do I guess I will have to figure this one out on my own or something. It's great feeling to know that my clothing for the fisrt time in my life are way to big on me! It's great to wake up not having knee back or hip pain! I love the fact that everytime that I step on the scale it shows that I'm losing weight! It's even better to look at myslef fully nude in my mirror and see thatI'm losing weight I use to hate to look at myself nude but now I'm starting to like what I see for the first time in my life!

I will not lie when I look at myself nude I see lot of work that needs to be done yet but I know that I will get there it take time, I have also noticed that my body is starting to fall into place the way it should look at well one thing I hope that I don't lose to much of is the girls!LOL I don't mind if I lose little but I don't want to lose alot of the LOL!

I do have some problems I am starting to ge boxes and boxes full of clothing that no longer fits me I don't know where to go with them all so I'm just going to start to sell them viva fall yard sale and Ebay or if anyone wants to contact me about buying some of my clothing please feel fee to do so.