Lap Band and how it helped me out of depression

Lap Band Drawing
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When most people find out that I had the Lap- Band done I sometimes get comments like " Why did you go do that?" " You took the easy way out!" " Well it looks like it not working" and I love this comment "Ewww your turned yourself into freak you were not meant to get that put on you you were made to be heavy" Well I used to let these comments get me down for the longest but then I realized I DON'T HAVE TO COMMENT BACK TO THEM OR GIVE CRAP WHAT THEY ARE SAYING TO ME BECAUSE THEY ARE EITHER JEALOUS KNOW THEY DON'T HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO GO THOUGHT WITH IT OR THEY ARE SCARED OR IT'S JUST EASIER TO MAKE COMMENTS THEN TRY! I have been dealing with depression for while now I was see psy doc and on lexpro but when I was out of work for while with my knee which turned out to be my hip and knee I got behing on bills and could not afford to get my Lexprop fill and could not go to the gym because of the pain! Oh and the meds they placed me to help with the swelling and what not put weight on me along with not Begin able to workout did as well so I got into rut for few month hating myself figuring out how I'm going to get out of this! Then something inside me woke up and was like HEY YOU YEAH YOU, YOU HAVE THIS BAND ON YOU ARE GOING TO PT AND ARE STARTING TO FEEL BETTER SO WHAT THAT YOU HAVE HAD SET BACKS ALL THIS YEAR SINCE HAVING ME PLACED ON YOU BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU CAN BECOME LOSE AND AND MEAN A LOSE IN GREAT WAY ON THE WINNING SIDE! I'm sure you are wondering what this crazy me is talking about well, I started walking before work if it's not took hot I'm working on my crocheting, garding, watching Btv.com and also mikeyssmail.com these sites along with obesity help.com have snapped me out of this funk that I was in plus knowing that I'm not alone is helping me because my family and family friends sure I not helping I have to be strong! Today I did something I have not done in 91 days and that was workout on my Wii Fit Plus I was only able to do this for 15 minutes because I had to get showered for work and it was starting to bother me little in my right hip but still 15 minutes is not bad for getting back into the swing of things I plan to workout some more when I get home form work tonight as well! I also lost 4lbs since last week so I'm so happy about that I most normal people are like 4 lbs is nothing at all when for WLS freaks like me it's great step in the right direction!!!! I still have 123lbs to lose yet and my 1 yrs bandanversery is coming up and I was hoping to be at my goal weight but you know what you can't rush great things! I must say that my Band along with finding hobbies like garding crocheting and learning nail art has helped me snap out of depression My band had helped me the most because it made me realized I'm not the same person that I once was I'm better more fun living life the fullest person now and I'm not going to let anything stop me and I will control what and how much I eat! I learned it's great to have left overs!

My first visit to Hindu Temple

I believe few post back I was talking about how I want to go to Hindu temple to see what it looked like and also try to understand Hinduism since I have been fascinated by the religion for as long as I can remember. It must have been faith or density that borough me to this temple well actually it was article in our local news paper I will enclose the link to it here http://www.tnonline.com/node/100133 I do hope that you check out the link I think that the article was very well written and explain a lot in it also it dose open up one's eyes to how all religions are some how connected. After reading the peace in the paper I new that I just had to go see this temple this was sign some above. The name of this place Anoopam Mission you can even find them online here at this site.http://www.anoopam-mission.org/ This temple is world wide the have two more site in India and England as well. I ended up going to the temple on Sunday it did give times in the paper as when to visit but it also said to come when ever you want to. So that is what I did I went on Sunday with my Nana and friend of ours, it was a site to see pulling up to this temple as it sits on hill when you get out of your car you just have to look around and take the whole view in as you can see everything and you feel like you are in heaven or something it;s like you can see the whole world or state for that matter. They do have two levels of parking the top part is for handicap and the lower is for people who don't need handicap parking. As we starting to walk up and in the door I had to take this photo as it was amazing the door it was beautiful I did find out that all the wood in the temple was hand carved and so was this door

We went over the Memorial day holiday and there were some people there that day who were very kind to show us around and answer some questions that we had all though I DIDN'T get to ask the questions I wanted because of my Nana's friend who would not let anyone get word in edge wise I WILL be going back, in face the invited us back for mass to see what it's like and to feeds us as well. I wanted to get more photos of this place but I was kind of afraid to ask I don't know why I was but I guess I was just nervous I guess, I do plan to go back aging in fact I want to learn all I can about Hinduism. I also loved the fact that the temple on the roof has bells on them I think that is so cool I know it's on there for reason but still I think it's so cool and the view from in side was breath taking as well even the inside itself was so beautiful as well, I don't know why but I felt so at peace, calm,relaxed,like I belonged, renewed. I'm not sure why but I did I even kind of felt as home in way too. I do hope that if you ever come up this way that you do visit this temple. I will be going back when I do I will be asking if I can take some photos.

looking for new background and it's my 100th post

YAY this is my 100th post!!!!! I'm so happy! Well this blog is about I want to change my background I'm sick of the background now! I'm going to have to check out how I can change it I know what I want to do I want to make east meets west theme for it! I know I will find something tonight when I get home from work! I just had to share and yay I got to 100 post woohoo

What view

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Most people when I tell them that I live right next to the woods, they say you are lieing you don't live out in the country! Well I may live in town but I'm right next to the woods none the less in fact I can even take walk and I'm in wooded area and it's so pretty, quite,cool full of life in it's own natural way! No this photo was not taken at my house this was at friends house she lives on top of one of our main streets but the view is breath taking I had to share this with you, I will have photos form my house! I will say this is one of the perks of living in small town sometime is view like this one! It's also reminds us that we are not the only ones that live here we also have wild life who live among us and we should let them be. Right now this is how it looks during the summer/spring here. I took these photos while I was taking walk I just had to share this with everyone it's quite something that it's right here and we don't have to go far to see beauty at all, it's also so peacful as well it in strange sense renews you some how I'm not quite show how but it dose.

My summer project and decor

ELLE DECOR APRIL 2005: Liza Bruce
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As most of you know I have summer project and that is to remodel my bedroom, no it's not what some of you think it's not major project I'm just going to paint over the paneling and change the decor in my room to something that really suits me and it's all me! I'm sure you are like how are you painting over the paneling well I'm using caulking to fill in the lines then I will sand it down prime it and put few coats of paint on the wall, I know what color are you going to paint you room, well it's hard to explain the color,well for starts since it's in my bedroom I wanted something that was going to be relaxing, peaceful, up beat, fun, but also me and good looking. I chose this pretty green color I know you are thinking but Green it's not pretty well this color that I have pick out is. I WILL show photos of it when I'm done to show you how well it looks.

As for the decor you are wondering what that is going to be well if you know me then you all ready know but for those that don't I will share with you. I love the whole east meets west theme, so that is how I will be decorating it. I saw this photo and I had to use it as an example because it's so pretty and goes with my east meets west theme. I will tell you this is some project it gives me sense of something different it's renewing me some how I don't now why but it is. I will keep you up dated as it comes along

I'm thinking about giving up meat and becoming vegetarian

This is something that I have been thinking about for while  now so it's not just something out of the blue for me. I'm thinking about giving up eating meat! More after seeing the movie Food Inc. it's real eye opener, I'm not huge fan of documentary  but this one was good one to see a must see. So ear go I'm starting to think about giving  meat up  I'm going to try it for two weeks to see how I like it. As many of you know I had WLS done and protein is super important in my heath so I will have to figure out how I'm going to get the protein that I so need. I  will be blogging about this as well so keep your eyes out for this. I know that my dad is not going to like this he will start calling me tree hugger or somethig like that but oh well he will get over it's I'm not little kid any more and it's my life I can do what I so chose to do right? My nana it will not bother her as she is not huge meat eatter after growing up on farm she knows how it goes so she dose not care to eat meat as well so I'm thinking she might try this with me as welll you never really know do ya.

creative and nails

I missed doing post on my 95th post so I'm going to do it on my 96th one where did that time go? So what I'm going to talk about today is something that most of you know I love to do and that is going to get my nails done. Unfortnly with the cost of everything going up with the ecmony I have not been able to go get my nails done at all in over year, and with me taking my mulitvitiam and biotin my nails are going like it's nothing and they are stong as well. I tell anyone to take Biotin it helps not only your nails but you hair I had to start taking this vitiman after my WLS because I started to lose my hair and this product help me with it my hair is growing like it's nothing as well. Well since I can't afford to go get my nails done or manicure I'm now doing this at home along with painting my nails I'm also learning how to do nail art as well, you would be suprised how this is saving money and time waiting to go get this all done. I will post some photos on another blog about this. I'm just learning how to be creative anymore it's quite interesting what I'm learning that I'm capable of doing it's quite something.