Monday, April 12, 2010

I'm going to beat depression & weight loss

As most of you know I have satated in another blog that since my WLS I suffered from depression and have not blogged nor done nothing at all really. I have been seeing therpist which has helped great deal with my depression anxiety and ocd issues. I'm am super said to say I have gained 8 lbs in month that is not good and I know it's all from the depression and not eatting right and too much. Starting today I'm stopping this I started the South Beach diet back up to help regain control of my eatting disorder well that is what I call it any how. The past few months have been hell on me and this past weekend along with today have been hell on me all my Nnana has done is bitch and nagg at me about what I eat my weight etc etc which has start to set me back in depression mode. Yes I have pills that I'm taking for me depression but them alone will not help it, I have told my dad that I'm depressed he told me not to let my Nana get to me but it's not that easy at time I'm sure everyone can relate to that one. In stead of falling into slump I thought I would get back to blogging about everyrthing again it seems that expressing my thought fears and everything else seems to help me it's like an outlet or something. I have come to realize that I let my weight become security blanket all my life which is not good I let it cover everything up so I would not have to deal with it I use to eat or blame the fatness well it's time that I no longer do this and venture into the unknown and deal with everything I want to be an after I want to lose the weight love life like I was doing few months after my wls operation. I also have come to realize I have few close friends that I talk with and I preffer to be around people that have had wls or have been thorough the process with us. I will keep blogging to help me and because it's something that I love to do.

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