WLS

HEY YOU yeah you I see you doing that I know what you are doing right now so put it down!LOL I know that I have not posted in while but I need to focus on me! What I'm about to share with the world is not an easy one but needs to be talked about. Most of you that are going to read this will be thinking that I took the easy way or lazy way, hip new thing to do or thinking I'm getting quick fix but I'm not. WLS Weight Lose surgery is not an easy choice or even quick fix by no means, where to start I guess the being would be good place but we will get to that in few minutes,I had WLS done two weeks ago I don't regret getting it done or making the choice to go through with it even if it did take 4 tries to get it done [will exp as we go along] .This is my journey to new healthier stronger person! The problem with my weight began when I was just kid I can member people giving me food telling, me I was to thin as child along with getting told that I need to clean my plate before I could leave the table, or even people just handing me food so they did not have to deal with me or something. I remember when I started kindergarten I was not fat[yes I use the word fat their is nothing wrong with that word],but chubby something along those line but not considered overweight, I was happy child I would play in school with other kids even at home with my friends I was an active child, that was until first grade when I was 6 or7.I stated to get sick lot at one point I got bad case of salmonella posing that put me in the hospital which I got at school because of the food, I did get better after little hospital stay,then I kept getting the doctors told my family that I had allergy's and asthma so they gave me course of treatment for both of them I hated the asthma meds at the time they gave me liquid alburtatal I had to use minneb treatments with machine I hated that to cause it tasted so bad plus I had to breath in the meds too, and steroid shots to help me I HATED IT! Well I started to put on weight my family wanted me to exercise and the asthma doctors told them no that it was not good for me to do that! So weight started to come on and on, by the time I got to 2 grade I was fat I got made fun of too but I did not let it get to me one bit third and fourth grade were the hardest times for me, I member one time it was lunch time I hated to eat lunch because some people would make oinking nosies at me but this one time really got me plus we had sapgetty that day for lunch, I was eatting me lunch and all of sudden few other kids came up to me and put their food on my tray and told me to eat it, I told them no I DON'T WANT IT THAT IS YOUR FOOD! They told me eat it or were telling the teacher that you cheated on your home work or that you tried to pick fight,[by this time I was in shell]I was scared they would get me in trouble so I ate what they put in front of all the while they were laughing at me I could not wait for that school day to end I went home and cried plus, where my dad was stationed at in the Army that place was not help to me at all. I did have few friends I play with was even on bowling team but I was still in shell even more by the time my dad got orders to move, 5th grade was not that bad esp where I lived that year we have family friend that helped get me out of my shell and some new friends did not I even joined peewee cheer leading team too even though I did not want to cause I was fat I got told it will be good for and no one will made fun of you trust us. Well they were right it did me world of good and I had lot of fun school was even going great for me no one made fun of me I was even active in gym class too it was great year for me I learned a lot. My dad got new orders to move to Killeen/Fort Hood tx, this is where it really came fully out of my shell I was their for 6-12 grade, I was still scared that other kids would make fun of me, I did not have hard time making new friends their school was going good I even made the honor roll and did not even try 7th grade was kind of hard for me though I did have few people that picked on me which stopped me from eating lunch in school, I would bring my lunch but never eat it, I ended up pigging out when I got home so no one would see me in my room eating, 8th grade was great I was out of my shell I was active in choir and different school things but would not eat lunch though! 9-12 I had not problem with people making fun of me I had real true friends all though choir was the huge outlet for me that helped me over come the bad things in my life I even started to have lunch but I did noticed that I WOULD graze though. My senior year I went to doctors apt and he told me about RNY even let me see video on it, it scared the shit of me!!!! I told him no way I will stay fat. from childhood up until adulthood I would try diets,pills, all kinds of exercises I would lose some weight and it would come back in even more,I know what some of you are thinking did I even have boyfriends in school and adulthood yes I did I never had trouble finding any in fact I learned tht personality is huge part of what other people look for, plus looks smarts ect. I kept WLS in the back of my mind why I don't know but I did I would always say GOD wanted me fat for reason so that is the was it's going to be,that is what I though up until 2003 when my mom passed aways due to compilation to diabetes by this time my weight was 280lbs I was not feeling good at all I felt dizzy blacking out all the time I made an apt with the doctor he ran test told me that I had type 2 diabetes my sugar was 400 so I had to take pills started yet another diet and exercise I watch my food intake super close for the fist time in my life I was going to the gym 2xs day 5days week the weight was coming off, I even got new job. No matter what I did it still kept coming back on and even more so then I tried diet pills which did not help I kept watching what I was eating and exercising too. In 2007-2008 I started to take belly dancing cause I liked it well group of us from where I worked went to it but I NEVER ever felt fully comfortable because I hated the way I looked, I started to look in WLS to see what was out their. I ended up hurting my knee at work and bloomed up 269 I was not happy the doctors told me to lose weight,while I could not do much I did find something that got my attention it was Lap-band.com I looked it up for almost year and decided to go to free weight loose night at LVH well that night changed the rest of my life! After finding out more and getting questions answered I chose to get it done. I did start with LVH but where I work we started to offer it that is where I meet Dr.Vitaly Saywna who I only had to have few apts with him because I almost completed 6moths program which my insurance required. I will continue the rest of this in another post.